tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post5071318935445059262..comments2023-05-27T06:22:38.251-04:00Comments on Gym Class Dropout: Playing that card...Amberhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08778678789173107387noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post-66078862146682083532013-10-02T00:26:25.841-04:002013-10-02T00:26:25.841-04:00I also want to say that sometimes I would sit in t...I also want to say that sometimes I would sit in the lobby... right outside the NICU. It was the NICU and PICU... the lobby and then the cancer area for children. This little boy, who was probably 10 or so, was celebrating his birthday. He was in the hospital battling cancer on his frickin' birthday. The nurse set up this little pitchers and there purpose is for patients to pee in usually. Anyway he set up several in a triangle and then they took some type of ball and rolled them trying to knock the pitches over. Bowling.... on his birthday. Like you said... kids being kids. Jana from Running Vegetarianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11454736980943082079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post-64725664792573441602013-10-02T00:18:48.038-04:002013-10-02T00:18:48.038-04:00I completely understand what you are saying. I ha...I completely understand what you are saying. I had a lot of similar thoughts when my son was early because he quit growing inside of me. I ate right, I exercised, I took care of myself. I think your feelings are 100% valid and I think that you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Whenever I got emotional about our experience so many people were quick to point out that things could be worse and yes they can be but it doesn't mean that my feelings weren't valid and that I couldn't be sad about what was happening. <br /><br />Keep in mind that you had him 5 weeks early. I can speak from my own experiences that there are a lot of emotions involved with that too. It was months before I could look at a very pregnant lady without wanting to burst into tears. It was so hard to see many of my friends having children after mine was born and taking them home before I brought mine home. When I talked to other preemie moms I found out that most mothers of preemies go through a mourning period where they mourn the loss of their 3rd trimester. It is completely normal to feel that way. What I can also tell you about my experience, which I know is very different from yours, is that I look back at our NICU stay, our constant weight checks and worry about him catching up and I think to myself... wow that was really hard.... that was really emotional.... but I made it through it and it made me a stronger person and a stronger mother. I also hit a point where if I could go back and change how my son came into this world I wouldn't want to. It's his story and it's part of who he is. You may or may not see that now and if you can't I think that you will. <br /><br />Jana from Running Vegetarianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11454736980943082079noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post-33281095213972289532013-09-30T21:31:30.754-04:002013-09-30T21:31:30.754-04:00I don't really have anything helpful to say ot...I don't really have anything helpful to say other than, I'm thinking of you and your baby boy. You're a good mom.Pahlahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15276879379865126005noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post-45689428357993647642013-09-30T16:47:32.401-04:002013-09-30T16:47:32.401-04:00I volunteered at a children's hospital for abo...I volunteered at a children's hospital for about a year (I am currently on leave)...so, I can totally relate to the interactions that you and your husband have had. Interesting people, that is for sure!<br /><br />My daughter was in the hospital for two nights when she was 4 weeks old. She had viral meningitis, and with that came a high fever. High fever + 4 weeks = hospital stay. Based on my experiences, I feel like there was a reason that my path was lead that way. It took a number of years, but I look back and know that she and I were there for a reason. <br /><br />You are on the same path...one which you don't know "why" yet. But, it will become apparent one day. Stay strong! You and your husband are doing a great job! <br /><br />On a side note, every single time I hear this song I almost break down and cry...Swedish House Mafia - Don't You Worry Child. I love love love this song, and every time I hear it I always think about little ones in the hospital...and know they are on their path for a reason.<br />http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1y6smkh6c-0Joannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06970722739917121208noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6887972774894305778.post-34643398713017038372013-09-30T12:38:52.803-04:002013-09-30T12:38:52.803-04:00I completely feel your frustration about the unfai...I completely feel your frustration about the unfairness of parents who don't even seem to deserve their children, and why bad things happen to good people. It's so hard to try to make sense of it - you can almost kind of understand bad things happening to bad people, but babies and children aren't deserving of any of it. People always say that things like this happen to the people that God knows can handle it. I'm not sure I quite understand that either. But your little guy is completely blessed to have parents who wanted him, planned for him, nurtured him, and now will be there by his side forever while he deals with his issues. I know in the end, it will make your marriage stronger and your relationship with your son closer than it might have been. But for right now, know that your emotions are always valid - get frustrated, get angry, and let it all out when you need to. It does not make you a bad person for wondering "why", even when you see worse suffering around you. This is YOUR journey, YOUR family's struggle, and I think allowing yourself to stomp your feet in unfairness every once in a while is completely justified. You are a beautiful family, just keep doing everything you have been, and you are in my thoughts every day for a safe return home for the little guy. (and on a side note - new Pearl Jam album out in a few weeks! Stress relief in music form!) 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